“Can you capture this month in a photograph?” Yes I can.
It is a photo of a peach, cut in half, pip still protruding, sitting in some very green grass. With lots of weeds. Which you can’t see at the minute.
This is the best analogy of my April that I could find. I cut the peach in half just this morning, for Isaac (who is full of Facial Orifice Fluid again) and thought “buh-limey – how bright is that?” Immediately followed by “God I’m loving the sunshine this month.” The two together made sense. The thought progression was so natural. Gorgeous, awesome, bright sunshine yellow.
The pip protruding should shouldn’t interfere with the photo. But it does. When I looked at it, I saw it as a massive blot on something that should be so beautiful. Even the way it cast a shadow was menacing. During April, I had a mental blip. There’s been a lot of shit flying around, and I knew a minor “attack of the depressives” was on the cards soon enough. And it came, too. Everything was so awesome, so fantastic, and then that. Tarnishing the surface, sticking out like a sore thumb. It cast a shadow. But things are still beautiful, in the bigger picture, right?
The surrounding grass stands tall around the peach. It’s also very rich in colour, hiding lots of secret info which I daren’t probe around for. Not too much, anyway. Some blades of grass don’t stand so tall. Some are squished flat. I’ve watched this analogy in my friends; in people I’ve been around in April. Some standing tall and taking everything head on. Others, flattened by what life has thrown at them, unable to take the strain. Falling by the wayside, making room for others, maybe.
There are weeds in the grass. You can’t see them in this picture, but they’re there. The weeds are always there. I feel like I’ve been dodging a lot of “weeds” in April. I should pull them out. Uproot them. Remove them. But I know they’ll just keep coming back. I don’t always have the strength to deal with weeds. They can be very ugly. But I can ignore them.
The Smalls have barely been to school in April; bank holidays, the wedding of William and Catherine, end of term holidays – we’ve spent almost the entire month outside in the garden. Quite often, sitting on the grass having picnics with LOADS of fruit. Omg the fruit that month…oh drool.
Yeah…it’s been a mixed month. But looking at April as a whole, it’s been quite peachy.
